Sorry For anyone who has tried to contact me of late i have been pretty gay! lack of phone has not helped situations!

but since brad went to afgan i have been keeping myself rather busy with work and the gym so if you have been trying to contact me ive only really been using facebook to stay in contact so if i have missed something or you needed to talk to me let me know !

love you all


MwaH

jenny is calm after her initial out rage lol

thats just through chatting to brad HUMMM he soothes the mind he does and his not even here

So im really pissed off, quiet angry in-fact ! just got a message asking for me and others of IAS if id send something to DJ or david to others LIKE FUCK am i sending him anything !

besides him being a major COCK and not just to me i could care less if he dies out there like brad i not gonna sugar coat bollox just cos someone is DEAD ! I dont like him simple really dont get me wrong id be polite to him but im by no way going out of my way to do anything for him.

his a liar and a cheat esp when it comes to his job he has lied to brad loads about what he does ! his no Infantry man his a B Steam BIFF might as well be a REMF

I’m more pissed of being asked and others being asked NOT ONE PERSON sent anything to brad other than myself my mother and his mother and brad is 100,000,00 time more of a man and solider than he will ever be !


im sure some will see this as the bitter twisted ramblings of an ex but i dont give a shit what you think! whats pissed me off is the lack of anything done while brad was out in iraq and his going to afgan himself in a matter of weeks and i bet he will get nothing (not that he expects it) but he damn well deserves it

real soldiers dont bost UP THE JACKETS !!!!!!

Oh and nothing you say in future will change how i now see you!


THIS SUBJECT IS CLOSED AND IM NOT WILLING TO DICUSS THIS FURTHER ITS BORING ME!

Seems so strange to think that brad and i have been married now for four years... We def have grown stronger as individuals and as a couple during this time. i can honestly say his given me a most unique and fulfiling four years i could have possiable wished for.

So Fruit & Flowers is what marks four years, we have had paper, cotton and leather now Fruit and Flowers

so brad got me cooling apples and i made apple cruble plus he got me some plants and some baskets to put them in ;D

i cont my theme fro last year i did a private shoot based on all the things brad likes to see me like ie my hair straight certain poses etc i sent these to him in Iraq last year as his present ;D

This year Mr Image who took the photos of me printed off a fucking huge poster size print of brads fav image from the collection i gave him along with a smaller a4 version for him to take to Afgan this summer (yes his going away AGAIN!) as our anniverary is now  over at it was on the 11th i feel i can now share publically the image and some of the photos i did for him as his had them for a year with only the photographer him and me seeing them.


so here it is dont care if you like it or not cos brad does and thats all that matters ;D nerrr

 

every have so many questions in your head you just cant sleep... i have so many right now the kind that are but if this and but thats and what ifs i feel sick through dizzyness, replaying diff ideas in my head.

so many things are about to change in my life but i first have to go through another few months of not knowing the one i love is safe or not and im not even sure how long it will be for huff... then after that it will be termoil and uncertainty the big kind.

i want a light to show me the way you know the kind you get in movies meh so rambling now so i'll end

Now facebook is great for keeping in contact with people and even better for finding people you once associated your self with. Sometime you think yeah be good to speak/see them again other times your like HELL NO def past is where things should lay.

other times you'd like to chat to people see whats going on in their life and if they are ok cos you remember them fondly but are not sure due to the company they now or still keep.

other people for the life of you, you cant seem to re connect with.

there are very few people from my past i could be arssed to piss on even if they were on fire! but the odd one or two that you never even had that many words past between your lips with but you always remember them and like them ODD

i dont really think much about school, mostly as none of it really made an impact on me nor the people id say college onwards was where people started really meaning things to me and i learnt my lessons about people

humm the past is an odd thing

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i think its good we have a prince who has the guts to actually fight and i think they way he went out there was good also and the fucking american PRAT who blew his cover should be SHOT you dick

not only have you put him in danger but all those serving along side him you utter TWAT i would shot you myself if i knew who and where you are GRRRR

CIVIES DONT GET ARMY LIFE(and i mean infantary!!!!!), none of you ! and you dont REPECT WHAT THEY DO

bet you dont know they earn £1 something an hour

brad worked for 7 months non stop doing 95% of the time 18 hour days everyday

i know for a fact i dont get it but i know my mum, his mum my friends and his friends get it even less

i honestly believe we now live in a hypocrisy based UK, freedom of speech does not exist in this country and respect for those who do the most for our country does not exist. people pay far to much attention for silly sluts on TV and thick wankers on football fields and pay them thousands and whats worse is 90% of this country is stupid enough to hand over their money to line these peoples pockets with out a seconds thought

i love england i hate the way its run and the morons in it

sometimes it makes me sick watching TV or going out shopping

i hate the youth of today expecting things to just land on their laps with out any effort on their part people are FUCKING lazy today!

this country needs a big shake up.

i honestly think the so called terroist can at any point if they were intelligent enough bring this country to its FAT knees and fuck her up royally and sometimes i think we deserve it too but they also themselves lack GUTS and prob money


i know this sounds extream but sometimes i think the best thing for the human face would be to all but nearly wipe it out

i could go on and on all night till day light but i just cant be arssed noone listerns no one cares and thats just whats wrong everyone is out for themselves

so fuck you world im off to bed cos you will just keep doing what your doing

x

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So im almost all packed for my weekend with Mr Gothic Image in Cornwall !

so i have a small list of things to do tomorrow

one get the rac man on camp and get him to change the front window as its got a crack in it then my plan is to change the oil and the oil filter

i like doing stuff to my car makes me feel accomplished like growing veg and making dinner from scratch.

got a long list of other things to do tomorrow just hope i can do them all in one day

i have just had this strange fruit


the inside
tates like tasteless keiw

so we have now ruled out the heart offically or so says the doc at the hospital in basingstoke... athough brad had to have an x-ray as they now think it may be nerve damage to his back and general chest damage. so no tabbing for brad for a while ;D

which is good as his mood has lifted for the obviouse reasons, he just needs to be careful for a while get a some physio and generally look after himself more and listern to ME more when i tell him he should see a doctor !!!

but we are both pleased as this wont fuck up his career ;D

also as a side note i have been planting more plants and re potting thr runner beans, and cucumbers as they grew really quickly :D

so i now have runner beans, onions, cucumbers, peppers, parsnips, and sorting out the strawberrys from last year re potting them
i hope i have a good havest ;D

well brad went to the hospital today done his tests tomorrow we go back and see what they founf if anything, although brad and i are thinking it may not  be his heart now but his lungs this is just the first step we may have a long road with many more tests to come yet!

as i lay next to my naked sleeping husband realising just how lucking i am to have him!

just be able to hug him even if he is currently totally unware of my presents is really just well there are no words, i was one of the lucky relatives who got their loved one back.

i think his tour in iraq has only made us stronger and closer as a couple