my mind

Fri, 17 Oct 2008 16:00:24 GMT

SORRY

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 22:41:41 GMT

Sorry For anyone who has tried to contact me of late i have been pretty gay! lack of phone has not helped situations!

but since brad went to afgan i have been keeping myself rather busy with work and the gym so if you have been trying to contact me ive only really been using facebook to stay in contact so if i have missed something or you needed to talk to me let me know !

love you all

MwaH

calm

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 17:57:19 GMT

jenny is calm after her initial out rage lol

thats just through chatting to brad HUMMM he soothes the mind he does and his not even here

WTF

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 17:26:19 GMT

So im really pissed off, quiet angry in-fact ! just got a message asking for me and others of IAS if id send something to DJ or david to others LIKE FUCK am i sending him anything !

besides him being a major COCK and not just to me i could care less if he dies out there like brad i not gonna sugar coat bollox just cos someone is DEAD ! I dont like him simple really dont get me wrong id be polite to him but im by no way going out of my way to do anything for him.

his a liar and a cheat esp when it comes to his job he has lied to brad loads about what he does ! his no Infantry man his a B Steam BIFF might as well be a REMF

I’m more pissed of being asked and others being asked NOT ONE PERSON sent anything to brad other than myself my mother and his mother and brad is 100,000,00 time more of a man and solider than he will ever be !

im sure some will see this as the bitter twisted ramblings of an ex but i dont give a shit what you think! whats pissed me off is the lack of anything done while brad was out in iraq and his going to afgan himself in a matter of weeks and i bet he will get nothing (not that he expects it) but he damn well deserves it

real soldiers dont bost UP THE JACKETS !!!!!!

Oh and nothing you say in future will change how i now see you!

THIS SUBJECT IS CLOSED AND IM NOT WILLING TO DICUSS THIS FURTHER ITS BORING ME!

Four Years (Fruit & Flowers)

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 18:26:51 GMT

Seems so strange to think that brad and i have been married now for four years... We def have grown stronger as individuals and as a couple during this time. i can honestly say his given me a most unique and fulfiling four years i could have possiable wished for.

So Fruit & Flowers is what marks four years, we have had paper, cotton and leather now Fruit and Flowers

so brad got me cooling apples and i made apple cruble plus he got me some plants and some baskets to put them in ;D

i cont my theme fro last year i did a private shoot based on all the things brad likes to see me like ie my hair straight certain poses etc i sent these to him in Iraq last year as his present ;D

This year Mr Image who took the photos of me printed off a fucking huge poster size print of brads fav image from the collection i gave him along with a smaller a4 version for him to take to Afgan this summer (yes his going away AGAIN!) as our anniverary is now over at it was on the 11th i feel i can now share publically the image and some of the photos i did for him as his had them for a year with only the photographer him and me seeing them.

so here it is dont care if you like it or not cos brad does and thats all that matters ;D nerrr

Passion

Fri, 23 May 2008 08:01:50 GMT

OK so im getting all packed to leave for Passion today although brads given me the worst cold and i know its gonna hit big time this weekend so lots of VIT C and pills to pop

anyway if your going see you there !

For Jez

Wed, 21 May 2008 19:06:13 GMT

1 year on RIP CPL Jez Brookes,from 4 Rifles, died in Iraq, serving his country for his brothers.

questions questions

Sun, 18 May 2008 23:46:09 GMT

every have so many questions in your head you just cant sleep... i have so many right now the kind that are but if this and but thats and what ifs i feel sick through dizzyness, replaying diff ideas in my head.

so many things are about to change in my life but i first have to go through another few months of not knowing the one i love is safe or not and im not even sure how long it will be for huff... then after that it will be termoil and uncertainty the big kind.

i want a light to show me the way you know the kind you get in movies meh so rambling now so i'll end

The Past

Sat, 10 May 2008 23:28:37 GMT

Now facebook is great for keeping in contact with people and even better for finding people you once associated your self with. Sometime you think yeah be good to speak/see them again other times your like HELL NO def past is where things should lay.

other times you'd like to chat to people see whats going on in their life and if they are ok cos you remember them fondly but are not sure due to the company they now or still keep.

other people for the life of you, you cant seem to re connect with.

there are very few people from my past i could be arssed to piss on even if they were on fire! but the odd one or two that you never even had that many words past between your lips with but you always remember them and like them ODD

i dont really think much about school, mostly as none of it really made an impact on me nor the people id say college onwards was where people started really meaning things to me and i learnt my lessons about people

humm the past is an odd thing

IT's A SIN

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 21:35:28 GMT

All Welcome invite and tell those who may be interested

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=8914999262

Harry in Afgan

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 01:03:53 GMT

i think its good we have a prince who has the guts to actually fight and i think they way he went out there was good also and the fucking american PRAT who blew his cover should be SHOT you dick

not only have you put him in danger but all those serving along side him you utter TWAT i would shot you myself if i knew who and where you are GRRRR

CIVIES DONT GET ARMY LIFE(and i mean infantary!!!!!), none of you ! and you dont REPECT WHAT THEY DO

bet you dont know they earn £1 something an hour

brad worked for 7 months non stop doing 95% of the time 18 hour days everyday

i know for a fact i dont get it but i know my mum, his mum my friends and his friends get it even less

i honestly believe we now live in a hypocrisy based UK, freedom of speech does not exist in this country and respect for those who do the most for our country does not exist. people pay far to much attention for silly sluts on TV and thick wankers on football fields and pay them thousands and whats worse is 90% of this country is stupid enough to hand over their money to line these peoples pockets with out a seconds thought

i love england i hate the way its run and the morons in it

sometimes it makes me sick watching TV or going out shopping

i hate the youth of today expecting things to just land on their laps with out any effort on their part people are FUCKING lazy today!

this country needs a big shake up.

i honestly think the so called terroist can at any point if they were intelligent enough bring this country to its FAT knees and fuck her up royally and sometimes i think we deserve it too but they also themselves lack GUTS and prob money

i know this sounds extream but sometimes i think the best thing for the human face would be to all but nearly wipe it out

i could go on and on all night till day light but i just cant be arssed noone listerns no one cares and thats just whats wrong everyone is out for themselves

so fuck you world im off to bed cos you will just keep doing what your doing

x

REAL MEN & REAL SOLDIER's

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 22:50:27 GMT

IT's A SIN

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 15:35:39 GMT

All Welcome invite and tell those who may be interested

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=8914999262

Cornwall Shoot

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 00:09:07 GMT

So im almost all packed for my weekend with Mr Gothic Image in Cornwall !

Corset, check
hair stuff, check
makeup, check
sat nat, check
phone, check
laptop, check
petrol, check
camera, check

am i missing anything ?

tomorrow is car day

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 23:29:44 GMT

so i have a small list of things to do tomorrow

one get the rac man on camp and get him to change the front window as its got a crack in it then my plan is to change the oil and the oil filter

i like doing stuff to my car makes me feel accomplished like growing veg and making dinner from scratch.

got a long list of other things to do tomorrow just hope i can do them all in one day

strange fruit

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 17:50:47 GMT

i have just had this strange fruit

the inside
tates like tasteless keiw

some results

Fri, 01 Feb 2008 13:25:58 GMT

so we have now ruled out the heart offically or so says the doc at the hospital in basingstoke... athough brad had to have an x-ray as they now think it may be nerve damage to his back and general chest damage. so no tabbing for brad for a while ;D

which is good as his mood has lifted for the obviouse reasons, he just needs to be careful for a while get a some physio and generally look after himself more and listern to ME more when i tell him he should see a doctor !!!

but we are both pleased as this wont fuck up his career ;D

also as a side note i have been planting more plants and re potting thr runner beans, and cucumbers as they grew really quickly :D

so i now have runner beans, onions, cucumbers, peppers, parsnips, and sorting out the strawberrys from last year re potting them
i hope i have a good havest ;D

hospital

Fri, 01 Feb 2008 00:43:07 GMT

well brad went to the hospital today done his tests tomorrow we go back and see what they founf if anything, although brad and i are thinking it may not be his heart now but his lungs this is just the first step we may have a long road with many more tests to come yet!

HAVE YOU SEEN THIS CAT

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 18:19:32 GMT

have you seen this cat ! he may look sweet but we believe him to be part of this horrific crime!

he is a suspect in a break in and is believed to have stolen from the buckmaster's Mrs buckmaster tells us her story

"Well i brought a loaf of bread yesterday and when i came downstairs this morning, i was shocked and horrified to discover my bread had been ripped apart and almost every slice had been nibbled! i just dont know if i will ever feel safe in my own home again!!!"

these were scence from the brutal attack !!!

hummm

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 02:45:34 GMT

as i lay next to my naked sleeping husband realising just how lucking i am to have him!

just be able to hug him even if he is currently totally unware of my presents is really just well there are no words, i was one of the lucky relatives who got their loved one back.

i think his tour in iraq has only made us stronger and closer as a couple

plants

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 16:23:45 GMT

yay only a week ago i sowed some seeds and i can already see green shoots one white and one red onion, no signs of the runner beans growning yet but they will get there and they are from the plants i grew last year so will be even cooler when they grow. i also just build my own green house which i can take with me as its basically a shelve unit with a giant see through pencil case over it cant wait to start using that too.

any hoo boring update but made me smile ;D

2007 in images

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 12:52:02 GMT

so this is my life in pictures from jan 2007 ish to jan 2008

images from jan-may

these are all from shoots with gothic image

this was sometime after brad got back from canada from training we were on your way to bristol to a goth club!

April

these are images from behinde the lenes in scotland in an old mental home for the DIAB shoot
May

first image is from the morning brad left for iraq 2nd is May's Its a Sin

June

first image here is me before i went to jez brookes memorial thing on camp where i layed some flowers for brad 2nd is me at Its a Sin June great night i got a boob cake and everything

another image from Junes Its a Sin, second two pictures are from when my sis took me to see little shop of horrors in london bloody great night

July

these are all from windsor at the rifles doo i got fucking wasted thanks to royalty ha ha ha wankers

a day out with one of the other wives and one of the GF of the girls whom are going out with guys from 4th rifles

the above were all from Its a Sin July

August

pre shoot photo and actual shoot photo Gothic Image

again pre shoot photos

results of the pre shoot with gothic image

Its a Sin August piccys

September

me at the first a;t night ive ever come across in salisbury i got wasted as you can see but fun

post slimes piccy with murphy who was on R & R from iraq one of brads mates i stayed at annalises good night

sep Its A Sin piccys you seeing a theme for what i did every month yet

these are piccys from carries and my Tiger Grrrrr Night carrie is one of the wives i know we were corset tranning her too for the mess doo

October

these are all images from the 1st ever Xpo in london of which i some how ended up being the face of i was also in the catwalk shows and generally around having fun

me at Its a Sins October halloween i have other piccys from halloween but ive not seen them yet waiting on mummy buckmaster

November

me airsofting with brad as this is what he wanted to do on his R & R while he was back from iraq yes more amry gun stuff my boi cant get enough but at least i got to use my gun for the first time

December

me at xmas drinks with old work people whom i miss dearly not all of them mind but some of them i think we would all do anything if you could all work together again darn merger and crappy stupid people in charge

me at the mess doo with brad i was wasted again but then it dont take more than half a galss of anything with me

this is post mess doo dinner at the local havester

me out on xmas eve in essex with me mates at the pink toothbrush

January 08

and yes me again at Its a Sin and dont ask what we were doing and that brings us kinda up to date but there are som many more pictures i should have inc in this as this is rather short version of 2007 really

hope this hasnt pissed ya off with too many piccys

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 01:21:31 GMT

darn sleep jenny sleep !!!!

ok so i brought a bike today so cant wait to try that out properly with brad.

college was good today feeling im in the swing again with all that but i still need to be more organised on that whole front

also really need to sort out my sleeping pattern
oh and start the darn gym again slipped for a few months now and im feeling shitty cos of it sooo must must do that....

been thinking about uploading a new post but just made up of images from the last year of things ive been upto like a visual flash from 2007 so when i can be arssed you may see that on here

oh and i have been [planting seeds so soon they will grow and then i can eat them...

also need to re acess my eating with regards to meat i need to go either one way or another i think this bullshit being in the middle veggie just isnt right !

prob is either way its gonna cause me probs comfort easy of making getting price wise yardder yadder just wish life was more simple sometime. with regards to the way we live our lives ie if we could just get up to live not for all this sillyness inbetween

meh im off to try and sleep next to my dreaming husband hope his not fighting zombies again in his sleep i may get a fist in the face lol

soooo

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 21:27:54 GMT

so im currently writting this on my new laptop thanks to my lovely husband who got this for me to write my notes in class (oh for those who dont know im at college again as a mature student accounts stuff)

had maz and glazey over last night and tonight and maz has been keeping me entertained shes sooooo funny love her glazeys been no stop im getting out the army stuff and brad and i have just chilled and let them get on with things. been nice having them over though i like visitors more people should come stay with us

edit (for those who dont know maz and glazey this is them from our last mess doo and glazeys last infact()arent they a sweet couple, oh and glazey is always like that so dont worry lol)

other news need to service my car which im planning on doing myself Oh and fix the piping for the washer fluid and need a new front window as something has hit it and i have a nice crack in it mmmm

need to start up at the gym again as i have really not bothered in a while and i feel really un fit

Oh and brads got to go for a echo grame thingy as his been getting chest pains they think it may be a rare case of angina (prob splet that wrong) where in he does so much exercise and works so hard his heart muscel has got so big that its not fitting inside the sac the heart sits in but just to be sure they have got an appointment for him in hospital to check up on all this stuff with loads of test bla bla i dont know only brad

Oh i quit my job so im currently unemployed but i havent started looking again but really dont think it will be hard as there are loads of accounts jobs everywhere

ermmm oh heck that will do for now im sure no one reads this really anymore but meh

Audio Radio, Cassette Players

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 13:57:01 GMT

Does any one have an old radio cassette player that would fit and L reg golf i could buy off them ?

just i dont fancie having a new one and i cant find any in that style anywhere to buy in shops now days mad isnt it

love to all

xXx